i figured i'd post the point tally and 2 quotes that haven't been answered... i'm going to call them pretty soon and then the points are mine... and i may even double them... :)...
amy - 12,200
chad - 5100
marie - 1600
stacey - 1000
mom - 500
jeremy - 500
robyn - 500
here are the two available...
"i'm busier than a one-legged man in a butt-kickin' contest"
"i once thought i had mono for an entire year... it turns out i was just really bored."
PLUS the 5 available from the birthday game...
Jan 28, 2005
"birthday" game...
On the eve of my 25th birthday, i decided to post my top 25 movie/tv quotes containing the word "birthday" - some of them are not really birthday quotes... but i get to make up the rules... and since i'm feeling generous... each correct answer corresponding with the quotes gets 500 points... 12,500 points up for grabs... the tv quotes come first... and the movie ones come second... but they were all in order and then randomized... so enjoy... (oh - some of the character names i left in and some i didn't...) the blue ones have already been guessed correctly!
TV QUOTES:
1:
Sam: Uh, dad, can I have an Atari from my birthday?
Harold: An a-what-i?
Jean: That's one of those expensive video games, isn't it?
Sam: No, no! It's not expensive!
Harold: Oh, well, the welfare lines are full of those video game players.
2:
Will: I have got, pants down, the best birthday present ever.
3:
A: What kinda' scary-___ clowns came to your birthday?
4:
Nina: Who told you that?
Dennis: You, at your 10th annual 39th birthday party.
5:
Al: We're making preparations for Tina's birthday party and she wants me to pop out of the cake. You'll never believe what she wants me not to wear.
6:
A: [singing] My name is Dawson Leary, and I'm feeling kind of weary. Today is my birthday, and you all look a little bleary. The girl that I cared for left me and ran away, straight into the arms of a guy who turned out to be gay. I got the blues! Yeah! Today I woke up feeling I was born to lose!
B: [singing] My name is Andie, and my brother's the one who's gay. My other brother died, and my daddy went away. But I'm still Andie, and my boyfriend makes me randy. His name is Pacey, and my mom's gone completely crazy! I got the blues!
A: [singing] I've been restless, hopeless and confused. This girl I told you about, she's been on the move. She's at my suprise party, where everyone I know is right now. When I show up late there, they're all gonna have a cow! Yeah, I got the blues!
7:
Dr. Cox: I don't necessarily buy all this new-agey crap. One time I saw my mom knock my father unconscious with a frying pan. And d'you know what I did? I kept right on going with my birthday party.
MOVIE QUOTES:
8:
Matt: Jenna, what are you... Why are you here?
Jenna: Matty, I told you - something really weird is happening. Yesterday was my 13th birthday and then, and then today I woke up and I'm this, and you, I mean - you're that! You get it?
Matt: [long pause] Are you high? You been smoking pot? Doing X? Fallen into a K-Hole? You doing drugs?
9:
Larry: It's your birthday next week? It's my birthday next week. The 10th.
10:
Gus: Duh, duh, duh Happy Birthday.
11:
Kuzco: It's my birthday gift to me. I'm so happy.
12:
A: Hi, do you have the song "I Just Called To Say I Love You?" It's for my daughter's birthday.
B: Yea we have it.
A: Well, can I have it?
B: No, actually, you can't.
A: Why not?
B: God. Do you even know your daughter? There's no way she likes that song. Oop, is she in a coma?
13:
Maleficent: Listen well, all of you. The Princess shall indeed grow in grace and beauty, beloved by all who know her. But, before the sun sets on her 16th birthday, she shall prick her finger, on the spindle of a spinning wheel - AND DIE!
14:
A: My old girlfriend from Oklahoma was gonna fly out for the dance but she couldn't cause she's doing some modeling right now.
B: Is she hot?
A: See for yourself. [hands him Deb's glamor shot sample]
B: Wow.
A: Yeah, I took her to the mall to get some glamor shots for her birthday one year.
B: I like her bangs.
A: Me too.
15:
Chris: Is that what you want everybody to do for your birthday? Pay it forward?
Trevor: It wouldn't work.
Chris: Sure it would. Why not?
Trevor: Because I already blew out my candles.
16:
Henry: Happy birthday, sir. What are you, like, 200 today?
17:
A: You know most kids hope for a car for their 16th birthday, not a country!
18:
A: Today's my birthday and my father says I can have anything I want.
B: Good for you and your father.
A: So guess what I want.
B: A new brain?
A: No. Your bike!
19:
A: I can't believe this. They _______ forgot my birthday.
20:
B: Thanks for coming over.
A: Thanks for coming to get me.
B: Happy Birthday, Samantha. Make a wish.
A: It already came true.
21:
Noelle: You gotta have a boyfriend, don't you? Otherwise it's just you, a cat, and 40 candles on your birthday cake.
22:
Jefe: We have stuffed many pinatas for your birthday celebration!
El Guapo: How many pinatas?
Jefe: Many pinatas, many!
El Guapo: Jefe, would you say I have a plethora of pinatas?
Jefe: Yes, El Guapo. You have a plethora.
El Guapo: Jefe, what is a plethora?
23:
Arnie: I'm having a birthday party, but you're not invited, but you can come if you want.
24:
Papa Smurf: Those other smurfs are all a hundred years old and they think they are all grown up now.
Johan: A hundred?
Peewit: Well then how old are you?
Papa Smurf: On my last birthday, I turned 542.
Peewit: Oh boy! You sure don't look it!
25:
Donna Jensen: You're breaking up with me, in a birthday card? Why?
Tommy Boulay: Because they don't make breaking-up cards?
TV QUOTES:
1:
Sam: Uh, dad, can I have an Atari from my birthday?
Harold: An a-what-i?
Jean: That's one of those expensive video games, isn't it?
Sam: No, no! It's not expensive!
Harold: Oh, well, the welfare lines are full of those video game players.
2:
Will: I have got, pants down, the best birthday present ever.
3:
A: What kinda' scary-___ clowns came to your birthday?
4:
Nina: Who told you that?
Dennis: You, at your 10th annual 39th birthday party.
5:
Al: We're making preparations for Tina's birthday party and she wants me to pop out of the cake. You'll never believe what she wants me not to wear.
6:
A: [singing] My name is Dawson Leary, and I'm feeling kind of weary. Today is my birthday, and you all look a little bleary. The girl that I cared for left me and ran away, straight into the arms of a guy who turned out to be gay. I got the blues! Yeah! Today I woke up feeling I was born to lose!
B: [singing] My name is Andie, and my brother's the one who's gay. My other brother died, and my daddy went away. But I'm still Andie, and my boyfriend makes me randy. His name is Pacey, and my mom's gone completely crazy! I got the blues!
A: [singing] I've been restless, hopeless and confused. This girl I told you about, she's been on the move. She's at my suprise party, where everyone I know is right now. When I show up late there, they're all gonna have a cow! Yeah, I got the blues!
7:
Dr. Cox: I don't necessarily buy all this new-agey crap. One time I saw my mom knock my father unconscious with a frying pan. And d'you know what I did? I kept right on going with my birthday party.
MOVIE QUOTES:
8:
Matt: Jenna, what are you... Why are you here?
Jenna: Matty, I told you - something really weird is happening. Yesterday was my 13th birthday and then, and then today I woke up and I'm this, and you, I mean - you're that! You get it?
Matt: [long pause] Are you high? You been smoking pot? Doing X? Fallen into a K-Hole? You doing drugs?
9:
Larry: It's your birthday next week? It's my birthday next week. The 10th.
10:
Gus: Duh, duh, duh Happy Birthday.
11:
Kuzco: It's my birthday gift to me. I'm so happy.
12:
A: Hi, do you have the song "I Just Called To Say I Love You?" It's for my daughter's birthday.
B: Yea we have it.
A: Well, can I have it?
B: No, actually, you can't.
A: Why not?
B: God. Do you even know your daughter? There's no way she likes that song. Oop, is she in a coma?
13:
Maleficent: Listen well, all of you. The Princess shall indeed grow in grace and beauty, beloved by all who know her. But, before the sun sets on her 16th birthday, she shall prick her finger, on the spindle of a spinning wheel - AND DIE!
14:
A: My old girlfriend from Oklahoma was gonna fly out for the dance but she couldn't cause she's doing some modeling right now.
B: Is she hot?
A: See for yourself. [hands him Deb's glamor shot sample]
B: Wow.
A: Yeah, I took her to the mall to get some glamor shots for her birthday one year.
B: I like her bangs.
A: Me too.
15:
Chris: Is that what you want everybody to do for your birthday? Pay it forward?
Trevor: It wouldn't work.
Chris: Sure it would. Why not?
Trevor: Because I already blew out my candles.
16:
Henry: Happy birthday, sir. What are you, like, 200 today?
17:
A: You know most kids hope for a car for their 16th birthday, not a country!
18:
A: Today's my birthday and my father says I can have anything I want.
B: Good for you and your father.
A: So guess what I want.
B: A new brain?
A: No. Your bike!
19:
A: I can't believe this. They _______ forgot my birthday.
20:
B: Thanks for coming over.
A: Thanks for coming to get me.
B: Happy Birthday, Samantha. Make a wish.
A: It already came true.
21:
Noelle: You gotta have a boyfriend, don't you? Otherwise it's just you, a cat, and 40 candles on your birthday cake.
22:
Jefe: We have stuffed many pinatas for your birthday celebration!
El Guapo: How many pinatas?
Jefe: Many pinatas, many!
El Guapo: Jefe, would you say I have a plethora of pinatas?
Jefe: Yes, El Guapo. You have a plethora.
El Guapo: Jefe, what is a plethora?
23:
Arnie: I'm having a birthday party, but you're not invited, but you can come if you want.
24:
Papa Smurf: Those other smurfs are all a hundred years old and they think they are all grown up now.
Johan: A hundred?
Peewit: Well then how old are you?
Papa Smurf: On my last birthday, I turned 542.
Peewit: Oh boy! You sure don't look it!
25:
Donna Jensen: You're breaking up with me, in a birthday card? Why?
Tommy Boulay: Because they don't make breaking-up cards?
Jan 27, 2005
a busy schedule and a little bit of grace... (and actually when i say a little bit, i mean a lot bit)
i've thought that my life is going to get busy... i think i underestimated that... i'm looking at my calendar and i'm getting tired...
here's the deal... i love life right now... i have talked to a couple of friends the last couple of weeks who i haven't talked to in a long time... and in talking with them, i realize how happy i am in my life... there are things that aren't great, don't get me wrong... i wish i had more friends that lived in vancouver... along with other things that i won't mention...
however... i'm so excited about what God is doing... He's got me in a place in ministry that i'm so grateful for... and a great job... and school (the end of it, anyway)... and while those things cause me to be busier than a one-legged man in a butt-kickin' contest... (name the movie - 500 points) i prefer it to the alternative... which is where i was a year ago... not in a place where i was involved in ministry... not a great job... i did have school and i loved it, then, too... but things are different in my life now...
i guess i had to go through some "junk" to get to this point where i can appreciate how good God is - the grace He gives CONSTANTLY...
i had a different intention when i started this entry... i have an amazing professor for my ethics class for j-term (the class was only 2 days - the rest is online)... i have been really tired from work... it's like i work for 8-10 hours a day and at the end of it, i just can't really think... i want to go home and veg - you know... lay like broccoli... (name the movie - 500 more points) and i have assignments due for class... but they're late... so i need to email him - expecting to get a response that is not so nice... something like this...
"Get them to me as soon as you can. I will have to dock some points as they are late."
you know - something short... to the point... enough to say, "i'm really irritated with you and the fact that you haven't done your assignment, slacker..."
i didn't want to email him - i didn't want to feel that way... i didn't want to get the response i was expecting... i didn't want to feel like i had let someone else down... but i did it anyway - i knew that i had to... so i email him... just a short email briefly explaining an unexpectedly busy week at work and assuring him that i would get them in as soon as i can... here's the response i got...
i think i've kind of realized i'm a jerk... and i don't like the way that feels... like i'm so much more important than anyone else... like i deserve special treatment... that everyone is going to like me... it's just not true...
my desire is to not get so caught up in this busy season that i forget to stop... appreciate those who have been gracious... show grace to others who need it... and embrace moments when i realize God is not through with me yet... and maybe He wants me to learn something... maybe He wants more from me than i'm sometimes willing to give...
i have to learn surrender... to not try and be the leader of my own free world... but allow Him to handle it... to work through me... to love on others through my life... amy is good at that... heather is good at that... mary is good at that... i can learn a lot from them...
so for now, i'm letting go (in a different way)... i'm going home... to rest... to be...
here's the deal... i love life right now... i have talked to a couple of friends the last couple of weeks who i haven't talked to in a long time... and in talking with them, i realize how happy i am in my life... there are things that aren't great, don't get me wrong... i wish i had more friends that lived in vancouver... along with other things that i won't mention...
however... i'm so excited about what God is doing... He's got me in a place in ministry that i'm so grateful for... and a great job... and school (the end of it, anyway)... and while those things cause me to be busier than a one-legged man in a butt-kickin' contest... (name the movie - 500 points) i prefer it to the alternative... which is where i was a year ago... not in a place where i was involved in ministry... not a great job... i did have school and i loved it, then, too... but things are different in my life now...
i guess i had to go through some "junk" to get to this point where i can appreciate how good God is - the grace He gives CONSTANTLY...
i had a different intention when i started this entry... i have an amazing professor for my ethics class for j-term (the class was only 2 days - the rest is online)... i have been really tired from work... it's like i work for 8-10 hours a day and at the end of it, i just can't really think... i want to go home and veg - you know... lay like broccoli... (name the movie - 500 more points) and i have assignments due for class... but they're late... so i need to email him - expecting to get a response that is not so nice... something like this...
"Get them to me as soon as you can. I will have to dock some points as they are late."
you know - something short... to the point... enough to say, "i'm really irritated with you and the fact that you haven't done your assignment, slacker..."
i didn't want to email him - i didn't want to feel that way... i didn't want to get the response i was expecting... i didn't want to feel like i had let someone else down... but i did it anyway - i knew that i had to... so i email him... just a short email briefly explaining an unexpectedly busy week at work and assuring him that i would get them in as soon as i can... here's the response i got...
Hi Robyn,not the response i was expecting... and i thought... hmm... grace... it was shown to him and he is willing to extend it... how many times do i fail to show the grace that has been shown to me so readily?
I am at present in Philadelphia, Pennsylvania for a medical conference, and the Eagles have just won their conference championship. It is bitter cold (-8 degrees F), and the winds are blowing bone cold at 30 mph.
I am so glad that you emailed me!
I actually was just preparing to email you, because I saw that you have visited the site, yet have not contributed to forums nor submitted your midterm. I am glad that you are connected to the class, and I am honored that in spite of the challenges to your time, that you intend to follow through.
Thank you for your follow up. God definetely connects our lives through His Holy Spirit.
I was concerned that perhaps there was an uncommunicated misunderstanding, or alienation through the progress of my lectures.
I very much respect the response of each student with regard to the content of the course, and their own pilgrimmage through the challenges of life's dillematic challenges.
I am more than willing to accomodate your needs, because I worked a full time job and a 50% time job concurrently while attending Fuller Seminary. I am well aware of the limits and I had one professor in particular who allowed me more time in the midst of crushing demands. I do look forward to your paper and your forum responses.
If ever you have special needs for extended time, or have issues you need to clarify with me, then please do communicate your needs or questions with me.
For His Honor,
Professor Smith
i think i've kind of realized i'm a jerk... and i don't like the way that feels... like i'm so much more important than anyone else... like i deserve special treatment... that everyone is going to like me... it's just not true...
my desire is to not get so caught up in this busy season that i forget to stop... appreciate those who have been gracious... show grace to others who need it... and embrace moments when i realize God is not through with me yet... and maybe He wants me to learn something... maybe He wants more from me than i'm sometimes willing to give...
i have to learn surrender... to not try and be the leader of my own free world... but allow Him to handle it... to work through me... to love on others through my life... amy is good at that... heather is good at that... mary is good at that... i can learn a lot from them...
so for now, i'm letting go (in a different way)... i'm going home... to rest... to be...
Jan 25, 2005
i'm so vain... i probably think this song is about me...
i promise that not every picture that goes on my blog will have me in it... except for, that could be a fun game... photoshop is a fun tool...
i've been meaning to write something the last couple of days... but everytime i sit down to write... i don't feel like it...
i have plans for an entry for the next couple of days... should be fun... but maybe only to me and amy...
but for now, it will just have to stay unwritten... because i'm going home...
i've been meaning to write something the last couple of days... but everytime i sit down to write... i don't feel like it...
i have plans for an entry for the next couple of days... should be fun... but maybe only to me and amy...
but for now, it will just have to stay unwritten... because i'm going home...
Jan 23, 2005
finding neverland...
babysitting went fine... the 10-year old lost 2 teeth, which proved to be the most eventful thing that happened... but we had a ton of fun... it felt great - the whole babysitting thing... i was a nanny for a couple of years in college (not a live-in nanny, but i kept 4 kids 4 afternoons a week)... i got so tired of it... i was bored with keeping kids... it's been a while since i got to babysit and friday night was just fun... we ordered pizzas, had ice cream and jelly beans with whipped cream on top, ate milk duds and watched dennis the menace... good times...
last night i went to see finding neverland. i thought i'd like it and i did. i was really impressed with the story... (not impressed that it was exceptional - but impressed - as in - it made an impression on me...) i was intrigued by the creation process of j.m. barrie's story... i like that i got to see that process, or an interpretation of the process... it was inspiring for me, creatively... there are scenes that stick out in my mind, but i don't know anyone else who's seen it, so i don't know that it would make sense... but there are these great images... meaningful dialogue... and magic involved... a great combination... i have never really been a huge fan of johnny depp, but last night gave him a much better chance of being on the list... we'll see how i feel post-charlie and the chocolate factory...
anyway - if you've seen it, comment - i want to know if i'm the only one who has seen it, and if my observations are accurate...
last night i went to see finding neverland. i thought i'd like it and i did. i was really impressed with the story... (not impressed that it was exceptional - but impressed - as in - it made an impression on me...) i was intrigued by the creation process of j.m. barrie's story... i like that i got to see that process, or an interpretation of the process... it was inspiring for me, creatively... there are scenes that stick out in my mind, but i don't know anyone else who's seen it, so i don't know that it would make sense... but there are these great images... meaningful dialogue... and magic involved... a great combination... i have never really been a huge fan of johnny depp, but last night gave him a much better chance of being on the list... we'll see how i feel post-charlie and the chocolate factory...
anyway - if you've seen it, comment - i want to know if i'm the only one who has seen it, and if my observations are accurate...
Jan 21, 2005
adventures in babysitting...
tonight, i'm the babysitter...
for christmas, i gave the parents of the family that i live with gift certificates for a hot date... okay - i gave them gift certificates to places - it's up to them for the hot date part...
the other part of the deal is that i'm the babysitter... so i get to have the boys for the night... 4 of them... i didn't really have babysitters growing up much... but it's fun... getting away with stuff you could never get away with normally... i live with the boys, so i know what they can get away with and what they can't, though...
but our plan for the evening is... each boy gets a choice... one will choose dinner... one will choose dessert... one will choose the movie and one will choose junk food for when we watch the movie... i've already figured out who will choose what - but since everyone gets a choice, everyone has to be okay with the other choices... that way, we don't argue about what is for dinner and what movie we watch...
i only wish we could do dessert-first dinner tonight - that might be too much for them to handle... but i heard a great idea that i totally plan to use when i have a family o' my own... you eat dessert first, and if you have room, you eat your regular food... of course, i will only do this once a month or so - but it will be done!!
i'm really looking forward to the time with them... i think it will be fun... and i'm glad that "mom and dad" get some time for themselves, too... i told them they're not allowed to come home until way later than what is acceptable...
i just hope we don't have to go through the same kind of adventures in babysitting as chris (elisabeth shue) did in the movie... but here are some great quotes from it...
Nobody leaves this place without singing the blues.
Gang Leader: Don't f*** with the Lords of Hell.
Chris: Don't f*** with the babysitter.
Get out of my house!
Janitor #1: Drop it kid!
Brenda: Why?
Janitor #1: Because we've got to kill it.
Brenda: [shocked] Why would you want to kill a poor defenseless kitten?
[both janitors start laughing loudly]
Janitor #2: A kitten? That's no kitten. You're holding a jumbo sized sewer rat!
that's enough for now... i've got to get home... hopefully, even if tonight turns into adventures in babysitting, that it doesn't end up as don't tell mom the babysitter's dead
for christmas, i gave the parents of the family that i live with gift certificates for a hot date... okay - i gave them gift certificates to places - it's up to them for the hot date part...
the other part of the deal is that i'm the babysitter... so i get to have the boys for the night... 4 of them... i didn't really have babysitters growing up much... but it's fun... getting away with stuff you could never get away with normally... i live with the boys, so i know what they can get away with and what they can't, though...
but our plan for the evening is... each boy gets a choice... one will choose dinner... one will choose dessert... one will choose the movie and one will choose junk food for when we watch the movie... i've already figured out who will choose what - but since everyone gets a choice, everyone has to be okay with the other choices... that way, we don't argue about what is for dinner and what movie we watch...
i only wish we could do dessert-first dinner tonight - that might be too much for them to handle... but i heard a great idea that i totally plan to use when i have a family o' my own... you eat dessert first, and if you have room, you eat your regular food... of course, i will only do this once a month or so - but it will be done!!
i'm really looking forward to the time with them... i think it will be fun... and i'm glad that "mom and dad" get some time for themselves, too... i told them they're not allowed to come home until way later than what is acceptable...
i just hope we don't have to go through the same kind of adventures in babysitting as chris (elisabeth shue) did in the movie... but here are some great quotes from it...
Nobody leaves this place without singing the blues.
Gang Leader: Don't f*** with the Lords of Hell.
Chris: Don't f*** with the babysitter.
Get out of my house!
Janitor #1: Drop it kid!
Brenda: Why?
Janitor #1: Because we've got to kill it.
Brenda: [shocked] Why would you want to kill a poor defenseless kitten?
[both janitors start laughing loudly]
Janitor #2: A kitten? That's no kitten. You're holding a jumbo sized sewer rat!
that's enough for now... i've got to get home... hopefully, even if tonight turns into adventures in babysitting, that it doesn't end up as don't tell mom the babysitter's dead
Jan 20, 2005
it's the end of the day as i know it...
lately, the word passion has come up a lot in conversation... a couple of weeks ago, friend jeff asked, "what are you passionate about?" - it was kind of a question aimed at a group of people.. and as the question made its way to me... well, i just had to say, "i don't know..." and it got me to thinking... "what AM i passionate about?" - what makes my heart skip a beat because i'm so excited? it's time for a little dictionary.com
passion - n.
1. A powerful emotion, such as love, joy, hatred, or anger.
2a. Ardent love.
b. Strong sexual desire; lust.
c. The object of such love or desire.
3a. Boundless enthusiasm: His skills as a player don't quite match his passion for the game.
b. The object of such enthusiasm: Soccer is her passion.
4. An abandoned display of emotion, especially of anger: He's been known to fly into a passion without warning.
5a. The sufferings of Jesus in the period following the Last Supper and including the Crucifixion, as related in the New Testament.
b. A narrative, musical setting, or pictorial representation of Jesus's sufferings.
passionate - adj.
1. Capable of, having, or dominated by powerful emotions: a family of passionate personalities.
2. Wrathful by temperament; choleric.
3. Marked by strong sexual desire; amorous or lustful.
4. Showing or expressing strong emotion; ardent: a passionate speech against injustice.
5. Arising from or marked by passion: a teacher who is passionate about her subject.
okay, i'll exclude some of the definitions, because what i'm trying to figure out is - what are the things that cause boundless enthusiasm for me? what arises passion from within me... to the point that i would die for it?
i've been talking with amy about what her passions are - and it's easy to see passion for ministry in her life... not that ministry isn't my "passion" - but it's what she'll be doing forever... and i'm in a job that doesn't really "count" as ministry... and i do volunteer ministry - but am i passionate about it? and... is it wrong to be doing things you're not "passionate" about - for instance... i love my job... it's incredible... i don't know that i'm passionate about it, but i enjoy it a lot... i guess i have a hard time assigning that adjective to things - because it's such a strong word... so am i really passionate about things and i just don't know... wouldn't i know?
i wasn't really headed anywhere with this particular discussion - just random things that hit me today as i was thinking about it... jeff is still waiting for an answer and amy is seeking earnestly a place to be able to live out her passion for ministry... which i think is incredible, by the way... there's probably no harder spot to be in, i'd think, than to know what your passion is - what your heart is - and not be able to live it out... to have purpose, but no place...
but for me... is it weird not to know? i feel like it's one of those things that would stand out in my mind... i would know... why don't i know?
so, now, i'm about to leave work with my thoughts... i am going to go down the hall and see if i can catch my friends of the california gang and hang out with them (fun friends from san francisco up to take a class...)
i can't believe it's only thursday... i'm ready for the weekend!
passion - n.
1. A powerful emotion, such as love, joy, hatred, or anger.
2a. Ardent love.
b. Strong sexual desire; lust.
c. The object of such love or desire.
3a. Boundless enthusiasm: His skills as a player don't quite match his passion for the game.
b. The object of such enthusiasm: Soccer is her passion.
4. An abandoned display of emotion, especially of anger: He's been known to fly into a passion without warning.
5a. The sufferings of Jesus in the period following the Last Supper and including the Crucifixion, as related in the New Testament.
b. A narrative, musical setting, or pictorial representation of Jesus's sufferings.
passionate - adj.
1. Capable of, having, or dominated by powerful emotions: a family of passionate personalities.
2. Wrathful by temperament; choleric.
3. Marked by strong sexual desire; amorous or lustful.
4. Showing or expressing strong emotion; ardent: a passionate speech against injustice.
5. Arising from or marked by passion: a teacher who is passionate about her subject.
okay, i'll exclude some of the definitions, because what i'm trying to figure out is - what are the things that cause boundless enthusiasm for me? what arises passion from within me... to the point that i would die for it?
i've been talking with amy about what her passions are - and it's easy to see passion for ministry in her life... not that ministry isn't my "passion" - but it's what she'll be doing forever... and i'm in a job that doesn't really "count" as ministry... and i do volunteer ministry - but am i passionate about it? and... is it wrong to be doing things you're not "passionate" about - for instance... i love my job... it's incredible... i don't know that i'm passionate about it, but i enjoy it a lot... i guess i have a hard time assigning that adjective to things - because it's such a strong word... so am i really passionate about things and i just don't know... wouldn't i know?
i wasn't really headed anywhere with this particular discussion - just random things that hit me today as i was thinking about it... jeff is still waiting for an answer and amy is seeking earnestly a place to be able to live out her passion for ministry... which i think is incredible, by the way... there's probably no harder spot to be in, i'd think, than to know what your passion is - what your heart is - and not be able to live it out... to have purpose, but no place...
but for me... is it weird not to know? i feel like it's one of those things that would stand out in my mind... i would know... why don't i know?
so, now, i'm about to leave work with my thoughts... i am going to go down the hall and see if i can catch my friends of the california gang and hang out with them (fun friends from san francisco up to take a class...)
i can't believe it's only thursday... i'm ready for the weekend!
Jan 19, 2005
i don't want no scrubs...
so last night, after a simple suggestion, i watched the show scrubs for the first time... and i loved it!!! i have only seen one episode... so i'm not sure if i really love it-the-forever-way or if it's kind of like a brand-new-i-"love"-you-but-tomorrow-might-be-different... but i'm thinking it might be the forever one... but, then again, i always think it's the first kind...
anyway... "loving" scrubs added to the thinking that i was starting to have that zach braff is brilliant... okay, maybe not brilliant... but i'm starting to like him as much as i like john cusack... maybe he's the new young john cusack... i think this is why i like both of them so much...
they look like normal guys... it's been requested of me to make a "hottest hotties" list... at least a couple of months later and i have no list... no ideas even... maybe one or two... but they're not the traditional ones... instead, i'm drawn to more average looking, but incredibly cool, with an edge kind of guys...
more importantly, i feel like they're the kind of people i want to be friends with... not that i think they are actually my friends in real life... but they kind of embody the ideas of the types of friends that i want to have...
i sound like a freak...
it's time to wrap up this post... i started it over two hours ago, and i haven't added anything new... too busy checking out stuff on imdb...
anyway... "loving" scrubs added to the thinking that i was starting to have that zach braff is brilliant... okay, maybe not brilliant... but i'm starting to like him as much as i like john cusack... maybe he's the new young john cusack... i think this is why i like both of them so much...
they look like normal guys... it's been requested of me to make a "hottest hotties" list... at least a couple of months later and i have no list... no ideas even... maybe one or two... but they're not the traditional ones... instead, i'm drawn to more average looking, but incredibly cool, with an edge kind of guys...
more importantly, i feel like they're the kind of people i want to be friends with... not that i think they are actually my friends in real life... but they kind of embody the ideas of the types of friends that i want to have...
i sound like a freak...
it's time to wrap up this post... i started it over two hours ago, and i haven't added anything new... too busy checking out stuff on imdb...
Jan 17, 2005
religion and politics...
i just sat through a 6 hour executive board meeting of the denominational leadership in the area... also - where i work... before now, religious denominational leadership is not an issue i would be that concerned with... this time, however, it kind of affects my job...
tonight, a search committee presented a candidate to the executive board for voting to be our new executive director/treasurer... he would be my new "big boss..." - i have a direct supervisor (the leader of the communications team...) but his supervisor would be this guy...
and so we had to go through all these parliamentary procedures... i felt like i was in 9th grade civics class...
there wasn't much argument on the subject, which was very much of a relief... i know how heated things can be - especially within the context of religious life...
overall, i was very encouraged by this man's heart to minister to those that don't have a relationship with Christ... to those in our area who have yet to experience God's love... but not in a shove-it-down-your-throat kind of way...
my struggle was... where do i fit into this denominational mix... i definitely hate the game... for meetings like this, you put on your "sunday best" and put on a nice big smile and meet and greet... it feels kind of put-on... like i'm an actor in some bad drama... i want to know what people really think... i want to know the desires of their heart... for real... as well as what movies they've seen lately and what is their favorite tv show... i feel like there are few out there "like me"...
in talking with my supervisor who is more "like me" than most of the people i work with (i'm pretty sure - he's one that will talk about "stuff" with me - and most others don't - or they do but they don't feel the same way as me...), he expressed some of the same ideas... i don't feel like i fit into this southern baptist mold... at the same time, i play the game... partially because it's kind of required of me for my job (to not be seen as a rebel and on the outskirts of work-life...) and partially because i want to play the game - i feel like i won't get ahead (not that it's all about that... but i do want to be recognized as valid in my job and in ministry) if i hide behind my email address and cubicle walls... i need to know the names, faces... they need to see me...
blah...
in the end, they voted (33-2) to submit him to the convention (all the southern baptists in the northwest) for approval... he'll be voted on in march... if that goes well, mid-april, i'll have a new big-boss...
a good thing is... i got hired in the in-between time, when there was no "big-boss" - the old "big-boss" is now the president of my school... which is great... he was an excellent leader (from the outside looking in...) - but i have less adjusting to do than others... they served under a different leadership style first... and frankly, i'm looking forward to a change, in some ways... plus he's really supportive of communications, in general... which is my area... (it doesn't sound like my job is being cut - or anyone else's for that matter...)
i feel really good about the whole thing, despite the process... but it's part of life... i am just trying to figure out how i fit into the mix...
tonight, a search committee presented a candidate to the executive board for voting to be our new executive director/treasurer... he would be my new "big boss..." - i have a direct supervisor (the leader of the communications team...) but his supervisor would be this guy...
and so we had to go through all these parliamentary procedures... i felt like i was in 9th grade civics class...
there wasn't much argument on the subject, which was very much of a relief... i know how heated things can be - especially within the context of religious life...
overall, i was very encouraged by this man's heart to minister to those that don't have a relationship with Christ... to those in our area who have yet to experience God's love... but not in a shove-it-down-your-throat kind of way...
my struggle was... where do i fit into this denominational mix... i definitely hate the game... for meetings like this, you put on your "sunday best" and put on a nice big smile and meet and greet... it feels kind of put-on... like i'm an actor in some bad drama... i want to know what people really think... i want to know the desires of their heart... for real... as well as what movies they've seen lately and what is their favorite tv show... i feel like there are few out there "like me"...
in talking with my supervisor who is more "like me" than most of the people i work with (i'm pretty sure - he's one that will talk about "stuff" with me - and most others don't - or they do but they don't feel the same way as me...), he expressed some of the same ideas... i don't feel like i fit into this southern baptist mold... at the same time, i play the game... partially because it's kind of required of me for my job (to not be seen as a rebel and on the outskirts of work-life...) and partially because i want to play the game - i feel like i won't get ahead (not that it's all about that... but i do want to be recognized as valid in my job and in ministry) if i hide behind my email address and cubicle walls... i need to know the names, faces... they need to see me...
blah...
in the end, they voted (33-2) to submit him to the convention (all the southern baptists in the northwest) for approval... he'll be voted on in march... if that goes well, mid-april, i'll have a new big-boss...
a good thing is... i got hired in the in-between time, when there was no "big-boss" - the old "big-boss" is now the president of my school... which is great... he was an excellent leader (from the outside looking in...) - but i have less adjusting to do than others... they served under a different leadership style first... and frankly, i'm looking forward to a change, in some ways... plus he's really supportive of communications, in general... which is my area... (it doesn't sound like my job is being cut - or anyone else's for that matter...)
i feel really good about the whole thing, despite the process... but it's part of life... i am just trying to figure out how i fit into the mix...
Jan 13, 2005
what's in a name...
i saw this link on amy's site and i went to it, and here is the description surrounding my name...
Although the name Robyn creates the urge to be reliable and responsible, we emphasize that it causes procrastination, lack of confidence, and the inability to realize your goals and ambitions. This name, when combined with the last name, can frustrate happiness, contentment, and success, as well as cause health weaknesses in the fluid systems, and worry or mental tension.
As Robyn you are rather serious-minded, responsible, and stable. You have the gift of tact and diplomacy, and possess a charming, easy-going nature which endears you to others. You have a serious desire to understand the heart and mind of everyone, and could be very effective in a career or in volunteer work where you are handling people and serving in a humanitarian way. This name also gives you a love of home and family, and as a parent you would likely be fair and understanding.
***
my name is a varied form of robert, which... Means "bright fame", derived from the Germanic elements hrod "fame" and beraht "bright".
(i'm famous!)
***
3 hours have passed... i forgot the window was open and i never completed the post... what did it say about procrastination? but i do want to understand your heart and mind... :)
interesting stuff... even if my parents did not pray over what to name me (i don't know if they did or not), did they choose my name or do our names choose us... that's a weird concept... are we shaped by our names or would i be the exact same person if my name was sarah or leigh... i don't know - just random thoughts... now it's lunch time!!!
Although the name Robyn creates the urge to be reliable and responsible, we emphasize that it causes procrastination, lack of confidence, and the inability to realize your goals and ambitions. This name, when combined with the last name, can frustrate happiness, contentment, and success, as well as cause health weaknesses in the fluid systems, and worry or mental tension.
As Robyn you are rather serious-minded, responsible, and stable. You have the gift of tact and diplomacy, and possess a charming, easy-going nature which endears you to others. You have a serious desire to understand the heart and mind of everyone, and could be very effective in a career or in volunteer work where you are handling people and serving in a humanitarian way. This name also gives you a love of home and family, and as a parent you would likely be fair and understanding.
***
my name is a varied form of robert, which... Means "bright fame", derived from the Germanic elements hrod "fame" and beraht "bright".
(i'm famous!)
***
3 hours have passed... i forgot the window was open and i never completed the post... what did it say about procrastination? but i do want to understand your heart and mind... :)
interesting stuff... even if my parents did not pray over what to name me (i don't know if they did or not), did they choose my name or do our names choose us... that's a weird concept... are we shaped by our names or would i be the exact same person if my name was sarah or leigh... i don't know - just random thoughts... now it's lunch time!!!
Jan 12, 2005
back to "normal"
i got back late last night from san francisco... there were only 13 people on my late-night flight and i was the only woman... i called my friend jeff and said, "i just spent 2 hours in a dark cabin with 13 men..." - it was pretty funny... probably not...
i didn't sleep well last night... i think i was afraid i'd oversleep... but i didn't... i went to work this morning - same old routine... it was a typical day... but i couldn't figure out why i had a hard time focusing on work... i didn't want to be sitting at my desk at all... (ironically, i'm here way past working-time, at my desk, by choice)
i had been in classes for 8 hours the last couple of days... i couldn't get up and freely move about... but today, as i had quite a bit of freedom, i found it hard to sit still... i could listen to what i wanted, prioritize my work in the way i wanted... walk down the hall if i needed to... but i felt trapped and very tired...
i couldn't really figure out until just now... when i was in san francisco, i spent a lot of times with friend(s)... i spent a lot of time with jeff, and then less time, but still, time, with other people... they were people my age, kind of in the same place... but i just felt the community of friendship and then i guess today i realized i went back to the life of isolation i feel surrounds me... which is also ironic, because i live with 8 people!
strange...
i also have been realizing how self-centered i am... self-absorbed, selfish... pretty much all about me... i've been reading Blue Like Jazz the last couple of days (should finish it tonight or tomorrow), and i can totally relate with some stuff that miller addresses... most of all, the ideas of self-absorption...
i did have a great talk with my friend elijah while i was in s.f. - God through him in my life is incredible... i'm amazed at the things he says, because i know he speaks truth into my life... but at the same time, he sees right through me... this i don't like... i have kind of learned all the "right" answers... that's what happens after a while... elijah would just say, "you're aware... very aware... but you don't listen..."
lots of words and many tears later, i felt like truth had been spoken into my life... and while some of it feels great... i have to be honest and say that some of it hurts... stings...
i don't really want this "normal" to be the norm... "i am looking for a dare to be great situation..."
i didn't sleep well last night... i think i was afraid i'd oversleep... but i didn't... i went to work this morning - same old routine... it was a typical day... but i couldn't figure out why i had a hard time focusing on work... i didn't want to be sitting at my desk at all... (ironically, i'm here way past working-time, at my desk, by choice)
i had been in classes for 8 hours the last couple of days... i couldn't get up and freely move about... but today, as i had quite a bit of freedom, i found it hard to sit still... i could listen to what i wanted, prioritize my work in the way i wanted... walk down the hall if i needed to... but i felt trapped and very tired...
i couldn't really figure out until just now... when i was in san francisco, i spent a lot of times with friend(s)... i spent a lot of time with jeff, and then less time, but still, time, with other people... they were people my age, kind of in the same place... but i just felt the community of friendship and then i guess today i realized i went back to the life of isolation i feel surrounds me... which is also ironic, because i live with 8 people!
strange...
i also have been realizing how self-centered i am... self-absorbed, selfish... pretty much all about me... i've been reading Blue Like Jazz the last couple of days (should finish it tonight or tomorrow), and i can totally relate with some stuff that miller addresses... most of all, the ideas of self-absorption...
i did have a great talk with my friend elijah while i was in s.f. - God through him in my life is incredible... i'm amazed at the things he says, because i know he speaks truth into my life... but at the same time, he sees right through me... this i don't like... i have kind of learned all the "right" answers... that's what happens after a while... elijah would just say, "you're aware... very aware... but you don't listen..."
lots of words and many tears later, i felt like truth had been spoken into my life... and while some of it feels great... i have to be honest and say that some of it hurts... stings...
i don't really want this "normal" to be the norm... "i am looking for a dare to be great situation..."
Jan 7, 2005
now that i've got that out of the way...
i'm going to san francisco tomorrow... i'm really excited about it... a few reasons:
1) i get to meet some people i work with over the phone all the time... they work at the main campus of my school and we do all the printing for them - but i've never actually met "them" - and i work with "them" on a regular basis...
2) i'm renting a car, which is totally fun for me - and i may have found a way to get it really cheap because of work...
3) i get to hang out with an old friend from camp '01 and his girlfriend and a good friend of mine who just moved down there - because now they're friends and they work together... (there are already plans for dinner for tomorrow night)
4) i'll have 1 of 4 overnight trips accomplished for 2005.
5) i'm really looking forward to the class that i'm taking (L1411 Christian Ethics)
6) it's like a vacation, kind of... i get the weekend for play time before class starts on monday
7) over the weekend, i get to decide how to allocate my retirement funds (more on that after i come up with 10 reasons)
8) i get to hang out in san francisco... that's a reason all on it's own - s.f. is cool!
9) i get to play chauffer from the airport sunday night for friends flying in from here...
10) i get to use those two days as paid vacation days (okay, i'm getting to that part...)
so i alluded to some big news twice in my list (#7 and #10)... i had a meeting with the business manager at work yesterday and i'm now on salary... which means...
1) i get to meet some people i work with over the phone all the time... they work at the main campus of my school and we do all the printing for them - but i've never actually met "them" - and i work with "them" on a regular basis...
2) i'm renting a car, which is totally fun for me - and i may have found a way to get it really cheap because of work...
3) i get to hang out with an old friend from camp '01 and his girlfriend and a good friend of mine who just moved down there - because now they're friends and they work together... (there are already plans for dinner for tomorrow night)
4) i'll have 1 of 4 overnight trips accomplished for 2005.
5) i'm really looking forward to the class that i'm taking (L1411 Christian Ethics)
6) it's like a vacation, kind of... i get the weekend for play time before class starts on monday
7) over the weekend, i get to decide how to allocate my retirement funds (more on that after i come up with 10 reasons)
8) i get to hang out in san francisco... that's a reason all on it's own - s.f. is cool!
9) i get to play chauffer from the airport sunday night for friends flying in from here...
10) i get to use those two days as paid vacation days (okay, i'm getting to that part...)
so i alluded to some big news twice in my list (#7 and #10)... i had a meeting with the business manager at work yesterday and i'm now on salary... which means...
- i have a consistent, steady paycheck... the same every month - which is SO GREAT for budgeting...
- i get 2 weeks paid vacation a year (and once i've been here 6 years, i get 3 weeks...)
- i'm provided with sick days, medical insurance, retirement fund...
it's a good deal... and i'm really thankful for it... i feel so honored to have this job... and it's a great job on top of that...
i'm getting a new boss pretty soon - within the next few months... and that might change some things... but i think it will be for the better - knowing my luck, he'll decide there's no need for a graphic designer/production assistant and i'll have to go beg for my job back at michael's... aagghhh... nightmare!
anyway - i'm going to go home so i can pack and get some rest so i can be ready for travel tomorrow... i think i'm going to be smart and try and get it all in a carry on so i don't have to check bags... that will make my life much simpler!
and just because i feel like it - 5 things that i'm happy about/thankful for today
1. on my first day of work (2 months ago), i worked on a design for a church - and a couple came in today from the church and we worked more on their design and got it in the final stages - it's a cool thing - i got to work with them from start to finish - which was a cool completion thing for me - they came in today and picked out colors and paper... it just felt really cool...
2. my cool friend david took me out to dinner
3. it's friday which starts the weekend
4. i was really encouraged by my reading this morning from my devotion (i may include some of it at the bottom)
5. i listened to my new howie day cd at work today and it rocks!
okay - i'll include it...
January 7 - The Gift of Friendship
Friendship is one of the greatest gifts a human being can receive. It is a bond beyond common goals, common interests, or common histories. It is a bond stronger than sexual union can create, deeper than a shared fate can solidify, and it can be even more intimate than the bonds of marriage or community. Friendship is being with the other in joy and sorrow. It is a unity of souls that give nobility and sincerity to love. Friendship makes all of life shine brightly. Blessed are those who lay down their lives for their friends.
Bread for the Journey - Henri J.M. Nouwen
Thank you, dear friends, who have been this to me... it resonated with me hugely this morning!
100...
so this is my 100th post... and i wanted it to be about something cool... i got nothing... i think it's overrated - what makes 100 special? therefore, i rebel... this is it... happy 100!
sand is overrated. it's just tiny, little rocks...
sand is overrated. it's just tiny, little rocks...
Jan 2, 2005
goals and memories...
okay - in no particular order (just what order they came in my head) are the 25 things i want to "accomplish" in the year 2005 - (or by my birthday in 2006)
1. read 25 books
2. read the bible all the way through
3. pay off all debt
4. write at least one encouraging note or card a week
5. once a week write down all the ridiculous ideas that i can think of from the week
6. shoot at least 2 rolls of film a month
7. go on at least 4 overnight trips away from home
8. create a personal portfolio (designs, photos, writings)
9. support 2 missionaries financially
10. watch every john cusack movie i haven't seen before
11. acquire master's degree/graduate from seminary
12. be a "mary-mentor" for someone at school
13. fill up a journal
14. fall in love
15. make a t-shirt quilt
16. be in close discipleship relationships with 5 girls in my youth group
17. sing everyday
18. do 5 things i've never done before (that aren't mentioned on the list)
19. take 3 concrete steps toward making high 5 ministries a reality
20. buy fresh flowers once a month
21. drink more water
22. acquire "stuff" for a home - furniture, tv, etc...
23. make good health decisions (vague)
24. continue on the journey of living the life of the beloved... marking stages where i know i've grown...
25. not be discouraged when all of this doesn't happen, but continue the list and be challenged for 2006, not discouraged...
and, because i felt like it - here are the 25 things i loved most about 2004...
1. moving in with the mcilvains
2. amy coming to visit
3. getting a new job (career) that i love
4. going to california for thanksgiving
5. starbucks (all year long)
6. freaks and geeks (this was the year of discovery), garden state - and other various forms of entertainment - movies, music, tv... there were some greats!!
7. my jean jacket
8. working camp
9. high 5 ministries - the dream/vision
10. getting a tattoo
11. surprising my mom for her 60th birthday party
12. learning how to play pool better
13. theology class
14. incredible discussions
15. realization of growth
16. tears i cried
17. laughter
18. my blog
19. discovery of 23rd in portland and papa haydn's
20. my hair straightening iron
21. new friends
22. old friends
23. living in the northwest
24. becoming more of "me" - realizing who i am in christ... in ministry... in life...
25. a million other things that i can't remember right now, but hope i don't forget forever!
1. read 25 books
2. read the bible all the way through
3. pay off all debt
4. write at least one encouraging note or card a week
5. once a week write down all the ridiculous ideas that i can think of from the week
6. shoot at least 2 rolls of film a month
7. go on at least 4 overnight trips away from home
8. create a personal portfolio (designs, photos, writings)
9. support 2 missionaries financially
10. watch every john cusack movie i haven't seen before
11. acquire master's degree/graduate from seminary
12. be a "mary-mentor" for someone at school
13. fill up a journal
14. fall in love
15. make a t-shirt quilt
16. be in close discipleship relationships with 5 girls in my youth group
17. sing everyday
18. do 5 things i've never done before (that aren't mentioned on the list)
19. take 3 concrete steps toward making high 5 ministries a reality
20. buy fresh flowers once a month
21. drink more water
22. acquire "stuff" for a home - furniture, tv, etc...
23. make good health decisions (vague)
24. continue on the journey of living the life of the beloved... marking stages where i know i've grown...
25. not be discouraged when all of this doesn't happen, but continue the list and be challenged for 2006, not discouraged...
and, because i felt like it - here are the 25 things i loved most about 2004...
1. moving in with the mcilvains
2. amy coming to visit
3. getting a new job (career) that i love
4. going to california for thanksgiving
5. starbucks (all year long)
6. freaks and geeks (this was the year of discovery), garden state - and other various forms of entertainment - movies, music, tv... there were some greats!!
7. my jean jacket
8. working camp
9. high 5 ministries - the dream/vision
10. getting a tattoo
11. surprising my mom for her 60th birthday party
12. learning how to play pool better
13. theology class
14. incredible discussions
15. realization of growth
16. tears i cried
17. laughter
18. my blog
19. discovery of 23rd in portland and papa haydn's
20. my hair straightening iron
21. new friends
22. old friends
23. living in the northwest
24. becoming more of "me" - realizing who i am in christ... in ministry... in life...
25. a million other things that i can't remember right now, but hope i don't forget forever!
98...25...525,600...1...99...
so this is post #98... it says that i just have 75, but it's said that for a while now... and so i counted them individually... and it's 98...
so this year is kind of a big one for me... not huge... but kind of big... in a mere 4 weeks (to the day exactly), i will turn 25... a quarter of a century... i'd be lying if i said that it doesn't make me want to stop and reflect on a whole lot of stuff - and re-evaluate and be aware... i can honestly say that my life hasn't turned out like i was anticipating... that's not a bad thing... but in some ways it's not good either... different... but now... what are my weak areas? what are the areas where i need to choose to improve? what are the strengths that i need to be aware of? what are the things that bring me the most joy? sadness? hope? despair? how should that change the way i live each day? needless to say, i have a lot of questions - a lot of evaluating to do... why not today - of all days...
so, technically, starting at midnight today, i had/have 525,600 minutes in the year... for any rent fans (and some non-rent fans), you can hear the tune... 525,600 minutes... 525,000 moments so dear... 525,600 minutes... how do you measure, measure a year? technically, i've already "spent" 1380 or so... how can i make each minute count this year? what are the things that i should treasure, embrace, cherish? i have wasted a lot of minutes in the past on things that didn't matter... why not choose, this year, to spend my minutes on things that do matter?
i don't know... all just random thoughts tonight... 1 cup of passion tea later... and i don't have much clarity... i guess i need to make a list... i don't know that i'll get that done tonight... i tried it last year on my birthday - 5 things to do before i'm 25... i'm not going to get it all done... so maybe i'll work on it - and this year it can be 5 things - maybe 25 things to do while i'm 25...
maybe it will be my next entry... #99... if i can think of 25 quickly before i decide to go home and go to bed!
so this year is kind of a big one for me... not huge... but kind of big... in a mere 4 weeks (to the day exactly), i will turn 25... a quarter of a century... i'd be lying if i said that it doesn't make me want to stop and reflect on a whole lot of stuff - and re-evaluate and be aware... i can honestly say that my life hasn't turned out like i was anticipating... that's not a bad thing... but in some ways it's not good either... different... but now... what are my weak areas? what are the areas where i need to choose to improve? what are the strengths that i need to be aware of? what are the things that bring me the most joy? sadness? hope? despair? how should that change the way i live each day? needless to say, i have a lot of questions - a lot of evaluating to do... why not today - of all days...
so, technically, starting at midnight today, i had/have 525,600 minutes in the year... for any rent fans (and some non-rent fans), you can hear the tune... 525,600 minutes... 525,000 moments so dear... 525,600 minutes... how do you measure, measure a year? technically, i've already "spent" 1380 or so... how can i make each minute count this year? what are the things that i should treasure, embrace, cherish? i have wasted a lot of minutes in the past on things that didn't matter... why not choose, this year, to spend my minutes on things that do matter?
i don't know... all just random thoughts tonight... 1 cup of passion tea later... and i don't have much clarity... i guess i need to make a list... i don't know that i'll get that done tonight... i tried it last year on my birthday - 5 things to do before i'm 25... i'm not going to get it all done... so maybe i'll work on it - and this year it can be 5 things - maybe 25 things to do while i'm 25...
maybe it will be my next entry... #99... if i can think of 25 quickly before i decide to go home and go to bed!
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